The photograph reflects, every streetlight a reminder.
Another long pause in posting to the blog, mainly due to lazyness and not knowing what to type.
The exams are over {last one was on the 12th}. At least until the next set. The majority went pretty well, however power engineering went badly and computer science went even worse. Won't know anything for certain until the results in June, but my hopes aren't high.
So uni is finished until September and I am left with plenty of free time to think and do as I want. Therefore all the things normally confined to the back of my mind have come forwards, again causing depression and uncertainty. I am falling to peices and am still no closer to fixing these things than when I last properly thought about them.
Small steps...
Song of the Day: Thinking, That's All (Jimmy Eat World)
The exams are over {last one was on the 12th}. At least until the next set. The majority went pretty well, however power engineering went badly and computer science went even worse. Won't know anything for certain until the results in June, but my hopes aren't high.
So uni is finished until September and I am left with plenty of free time to think and do as I want. Therefore all the things normally confined to the back of my mind have come forwards, again causing depression and uncertainty. I am falling to peices and am still no closer to fixing these things than when I last properly thought about them.
Small steps...
Song of the Day: Thinking, That's All (Jimmy Eat World)
posted by Nazgul at 02:26
10 Comments:
yeh i know the feeling, sociology went really bad. i hate all that philisophical/metaphysics stuff...interesting, but i dont want to be examined on it
oh come on gus, dont get depressed. my summer is seriously constricted by mono, not that i want to steal your thunder. everything seems to come all at once and i cant eat so i have this crappy energy stuff which is nothing more than minging.
then again, it's hard to say dont get depressed because it's an illness that is not going to go away by someone saying so. just like this mono is not going to shift.
i feel like i keep telling people i have it for the whole comfort thing because it really is so shit and ive never experienced this level of tiredness before. plus, i cant even go home because my mums broke her leg and it's still in the contagious stage and i dont want to give it to her.
life can really suck, but it just makes all the cool stuff even funner :P
p.s get stoned. you prob wont agree with me, but it's the best medicine ever in the short term. i actually get rid of my aches for 2 hours.
I am sorry to hear that you are ill and hope that you make a full recovery sooner rather than later.
I like philosophy and metaphysics, it’s pretty interesting but wouldn’t be too keen to be examined on it either. Exams are nasty, but their nature makes them necessary. Screwing up is part of being alive. I know I’ve done it before and will more than likely do it again. Doesn’t make it any less annoying but in understanding why it happened provides a valuable way of learning.
IMHO depression is your brains way of telling you that something is wrong. Sometimes it can be chemical/biological but in this case I think it is more mental. Occasionally the whole “chin up” approach will actually work. Unfortunately however it usually only provokes and anger response.
In some ways I guess life has to be bad, or else how would you know what the good stuff was if it was all the same.
p.s. Yes, you are correct. I don’t agree with that at all. {Cyanide is much more effective :p} I have much better things to do with my time and ways to alter my mental state than resorting to that. Each to their own.
Song of the Day: Asthenia {Blink-182}
yes, each to their own.
but i dont 'resort' to it. its social and its fun and it makes you appreciate what is around you. its like all your best ideas just come together all at once and you can right down all this cool stuff, which is abstract. to say resort would be like me snorting cannabis or injecting heroin. no way.
i think more have died from cyanide than cannabis. haha
i mean snorting coke, not cannabis. feck, what a dumbass
I’m glad you agree with that statement.
For you can justify it any way you like but you still won’t get me to agree with it. Give as many reasons as you like but I can think of plenty of other social and fun activities other than taking hallucinogens {e.g. WOD, counter-strike, Magic the Gathering}.
You take a hallucinogen I just close my eyes and imagine or blank my mind and see what happens. Sleep deprivation also has a cool effect buts that’s slightly more questionable…
Appreciating what is around me is something I try to do every day, don’t need chemicals to do that either. You find it acceptable, I do not.
I don’t think I will ever agree with it. It just isn’t part of my nature. However I respect a person’s individuality and freedom. As long as you have rationalised it with yourself and it doesn’t hurt anyone else I will stand by my original statement, “each to their own”.
n.b. the context I am referring to is the recreational as opposed to medicinal.
Song of the Day: Break Yourself (Something Corporate)
i know what you are saying.
remember i am a very sarcastic person too.
I wasn't being sarcastic except in a few minor points. The problem with sarcasm on the net and in other forms of written communication is that it can sometimes be difficult to distinguish when someone is using it or not.
Which points do you think I was being sarcastic with? What I said is what I think.
Song of the Day: Stairway to Heaven (Led Zeppelin)
gus, it doesn't matter im just being wide. just being light hearted.
Fair enough.
Song of the Day: Watch The Sky (Something Corporate)
Fair 'nuff
Yay the simpsons are on...*runs*...
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